I never had friends growing up in school. I also was an avid barefooter, I always went barefoot at home, outside to play, walk in public and I went inside my friends house barefoot, I'm so glad that I grew up gay, I find that being gay is very special to me and it is very sacred as well. When I shook someones hand I gave them a dead fish handshake instead. Everyone always told me that when I ran I always have my arms up and both my hands would flap up and down like I have a broken wrist. I always laughed very feminine, I always remember having a limp wrist, I would always have my hands droop down to the ground when I had my arms up as well when I would run, I wouldn't run like a boy would run, but rather a girl. I knew that I was different, I was extremely feminine, flamboyant & effeminate. I self identify myself as gay, I have always known I was gay since I was four years old.